Anxiety can encompass the entire body in moments,
the world keeps moving, but you are still, suffocating.
Your mind cannot connect to your body to make your next move.
Your heart rate increases until you are sure you will collapse.
It’s too much.
You feel too much.
You just want to run to the closest hole and crawl inside.
No people, no noise, nothing.
Now you are sweating, it’s so hot.
Won’t someone turn on the air?
Who cares if it is Winter, you feel like you’re in a sauna.
Your mind is racing with every self-loathing thought you could possibly imagine.
Why did I say that? Were they laughing at me? WHY CAN’T I STOP ________.
Fill in the blank, because you have a million.
YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
the voice inside your head screams.
So, you frantically rush to find your hole.
To attempt to take control.
Sometimes this works,
sometimes it doesn’t.
Either way, it’s like your whole body feels nails on chalkboard enter your being.
Then, it could be over just like that.
I’d like to welcome you, to when anxiety attacks.