Today I just want to be OK.
I am tired of feeling unwell.
I am tired of feeling different.
I am just tired.
I am tired of the endless mental strain of addiction,
constantly being surrounded by my old habits,
Saying no to socially acceptable alcohol
thus, creating a racket.
NO? Why not?
Tired of having to explain,
it’s none of your business,
it’s none of your pain.
I am tired of this endless pressure weighing on my chest,
like there is a part of me attempting to claw itself out,
and until then, I will never feel rest.
I constantly feel the weight, like I am about to suffocate.
I am tired of worrying.
The earthquake across the world,
my friend is going through a divorce,
I am the sole support for a plethora of people,
there are so many people still sick and suffering from addiction.
We are literally responsible for destroying our planet,
and have done so in less than a century.
There are so many problems that already have solutions.
But our continued through the generation’s, 1% chooses to line their pockets instead of save mankind.
I am tired of all the pain.
I am tired of all the sadness.
I am tired.
Can’t I not get a parking ticket today?
Or not simultaneously get splashed by an ongoing car?
I am tired.
Today, I just want to be OK.
Can I please just catch a break…
✌Gia Marie 2017 ©